It has been a very long time since I last wrote anything. No excuse really, but in explanation – I did not trust myself to write anything and maintain my goal of always have what I write to be pleasing to and honoring God. It seemed that everything I read on social media was about politics, and some of the things being said made my blood boil. And the sad part was what many of my Christian friends were writing.
I felt it better to not say anything lest my anger took over and then I’d be guilty of the very same things that made me angry in the first place.
So, after a season of silence, I am ready to start writing again. There are several things I have on my mind that I think I’ll write about, including my weight struggle, my health, and also remembering the month of February from ten years ago. That one will be several posts, I imagine. And who knows what else I might write about. I still want to get back to writing about bits and pieces from my past, as I attempt to organize somewhat of a history of my life. And I’ll always have some thoughts on what God is teaching me. I have really wanted to write those thoughts more often, but I settled into a habit of not writing and it has been hard to start again.
A quick update on my weight struggle – I still have it.
I’ve been on the losing side of that battle more than the winning side for most of the past year, but I’m going on the offensive once again and am determined that this year is going to be different. I’ll write a couple of in-depth posts later on, but for now, I’ll just say that some of my strategies are changing and I’ve spent the first few weeks of 2021 working hard to establish new habits that will have long-term results.
My health has been what I thought was pretty good. Because I am very high-risk because of the various things that I have, I have been mostly staying inside, not going places, and doing my best to be safe and to do my part to keep others safe. One result has been that I have not had any major colds or sinus infections. So I’ve been feeling pretty good. I’ve been exercising a lot more than I had been, and that also had me feeling fairly good, both physically and mentally,
But last week I had my scheduled yearly echocardiogram. I figured everything was fine and was looking forward to encouraging news from my cardiologist during my upcoming appointment. But the day after the echo I received a call from the cardiologist.
Yeah, when you get a call the day after any kind of test you’re probably not getting good news.
The way that my heart is working raised some red flags for the doctor and as a result, I am going to have to have another heart catheterization. I’m not sure when yet, but it should be this week. The doctor is waiting for my insurance to authorize it before they can schedule me. This frustrates me and is probably a rant post for another time, but for now, we have to wait for some person sitting at a desk to authorize something that my doctor needs to do asap. That just seems wrong, but that is where I am right now. Waiting for a phone call to tell me when to get to the hospital.
The last catheterization, when I had my 2nd heart attack was quite difficult for the doctors. There were a few complications with the catheterization, and what should have taken 15 to 20 minutes ended up taking well over 2 hours. I am a little worried about going through that again. So if anyone is reading this, I’d certainly appreciate your prayers.
That’s it for now, hopefully, I will have another post either later today or tomorrow.
Grace and peace, y’all.
Things That I Write About
But my number one goal, my mission in life, is to glorify God in everything that I do and all that I am. As 1 Corinthians 10:31 states, “So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.” That’s it. That is my mission. God has assigned that mission to me (and to all followers of Jesus) and I have chosen to accept that mission.
But because I want to glorify God, and to honor Him with everything I do, I invite Him to search my heart, my thoughts, every single day. The things I’m anxious about, the times when anxiety or even depression seem to overwhelm me, I want God to see those thoughts so that He can handle them for me.
I have many new friends who probably have never seen this and/or don’t know why my birthday (yesterday, August 17) is always so bittersweet for me. It’s hard to believe it has been 48 years since that fateful morning. I can remember those details so clearly. It really doesn’t seem possible it was that long ago.
Psalms 119: 66-68 I believe in your commands, now teach me good judgment and knowledge. I used to wander off until you disciplined me; but now I closely follow your word. You are good and do only good; teach me your decrees. I was raised in the church. I was dedicated to the service of…