Search Me, God

Whether I like it or not, God has examined my heart and He knows everything about me. He knows what I think when I read something on social media that just makes my blood boil. (And I’m going to revisit that topic again soon, too.) God knows what I think, and what I do when the driver in front or behind or beside me does something that is less than intelligent.

Where did THAT thought come from? Good thing God didn’t…d’oh! He knew my reaction before I even said it.

I’ll be mindlessly scrolling through one feed or another and something leads me down another rabbit trail and then on to another and suddenly, in living color is that scene that I certainly wasn’t looking for. Do I linger for just a second to see what happens next? God knows it and He knows what my thoughts are about that scene.

What did I think about that Walmart shopper in the pajamas that have last month’s breakfast stains on them? When I looked at my QuickBooks business report, was my first thought that God was taking care of me, or was it worry and anxiety because I can’t see how that is going to work?

When the person I’m talking to expresses an ideology that is so far to one extreme or the other that I want to just scream, God knows what I’m thinking and what I’m going to say.

God knows everything about my day, how I spend my time, what I think about when I’m out walking, what I do with my working time on the computer. He knows how well I stick to my healthy diet and He knows when I don’t stick to it.

But what is really incredible to me is that no matter what I’m thinking, saying, or doing, God is thinking about me!
Ps 139:17 How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered!

God cares about me so much that His thoughts about me cannot even be numbered! And they are good thoughts, they are precious! He’s not thinking, “Aha! Oyler, BUSTED!” He’s not waiting to zap me or sling lightning bolts my way. His thoughts about me are valuable, priceless.

And what struck me is that these verses apply to each and every person, at the same time! From the beginning of time to the end of time. God knows everything about everyone and thinks about everyone ever, simultaneously!

How utterly amazing and awesome is our God!

So I know that God already knows everything about me, He has from even before I was born…

13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my motherā€™s womb.

14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelousā€”how well I know it.

15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.

16 You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

But because I want to glorify God, and to honor Him with everything I do, I invite Him to search my heart, my thoughts, every single day. The things I’m anxious about, the times when anxiety or even depression seem to overwhelm me, I want God to see those thoughts so that He can handle them for me.

I want God to point out to me anything that I’m doing that does not glorify and honor Him. I want Him to let me know if I’m letting worries, or bad thoughts, or bad habits and actions interfere with me following Him. I want to let every part of me, and who I am, glorify God, and honor Him in all ways possible.

Grace and peace, y’all!

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